I tend to easily project my emotions onto another person.

When a relationship begins to develop, I unconsciously see the other person as an emotional anchor, with my joys and sorrows fluctuating around their reactions. I overthink when they reply slowly, feel down when they accidentally neglect me, and place all my expectations on this relationship, hoping they will treat it as importantly as I do, putting it in the most significant position.

Moreover, many times I try to prove my importance in the relationship by testing and demanding in various ways, even unintentionally creating some tests just to see if they get nervous for me. I thought this would confirm that the relationship is important and irreplaceable to them.

But in reality, this behavior only makes the other person feel exhausted and suffocated. My over-attention and constant pressure are actually chains that bind them.

I always think that close contact and wholehearted involvement can confirm my importance, always trying to prove the uniqueness of this relationship through frequent efforts and closeness, but I overlook whether the other person is willing to bear this heavy emotional burden, whether they need enough space to breathe.

I place all my insecurities and emotional voids onto others, trying to fill the emptiness inside by holding onto a relationship, but I forget that no one is obligated to take on another person's entire emotional state, and I forget that everyone's capacity for intimacy varies greatly. Many deeply meaningful relationships are ruined by my clumsy approach. I just want to get closer, but in the end, all I get is mutual exhaustion and distance.

Sometimes I really want to apologize to those I have overly disturbed. My heart has never intended to become a burden, nor have I ever wanted to tie someone down with love.

I'm just too afraid of losing, too eager to be needed, and I used the wrong way. I'm sorry, that was never my intention.